Please help me /lounge/, I've been chasing the wrong dudes my whole life and it took many years to finally realise who I really love..

There was a guy who was pretty much my best friend. We did so much together, we were both fit and he was muscly but... He was an inch or 2 shorter than me. I know it seemed shallow but at the time I could get so many guys because I was pretty attractive (not being an ego bitch or anything) so i discarded him. He was so sweet and caring but i wanted to be wild and carefree.. i was stupid. But the problem was every dude I was with turned to be a douche... using me like I'm a piece of meat.

It was my short muscly best friend that was there for me through it all. Waiting for me and loving me. I was selfish and only wanted the bad guys, but I've realised how much I've matured now, /lounge/... I realised I'm tired of dating those bad boys that are 6ft+ tall and have a tough attitude and don't give a shit about anything except my body.

I finally realise I want a guy like my best friend who has been there all along, and I'm older now so I want to settle down. I want to truly be loved and know what it's like to be taken care of. I want to give him my whole heart and soul and forget about every bad boy that I've been with over the years.

But...
I think he is too heartbroken to love me back anymore. He says I'm using him as a last resort but I'm not I swear I've just finally realised what I need in my life. I hate that it took me this long to realise what he meant and would for me. I want him with me forever and I love him, And I promise on my life that will make up for all the years of leading on, breaking his heart and using him as emotional support. He didn't deserve it and I only just realised what a bitch I was.

How do I get him to be with me /lounge/?

>>1
Realize that you fuck up and move on