When i was a kid i always used to be happy, i used to enjoy video games, fishing, bmxing, motocross, sports, everything.

Over the past few years i have lost interest in everything, ive become extremely introverted and everything i do, mainly gaming and music, im only doing it to waste time. Im not getting any enjoyment out of anything and havent done for awhile.

Ive basically shut my self in for 2 years just wasting time, i have very little real friends and i cant talk to them about anything as my lack of interests prevents me from engaging in any real social situation.

What do i do, i feel like i dont know myself anymore, i dont have a favorite color, i dont know my sexual orientation, i dont know my interests.

When you find the cure, pls tell me. We are pretty much in the same situation.

I think it's called getting older.

>>1
Dont worry - this is what happens to stupid people. It's natures way of keeping them from reproducing.

Sorry, but you were born stupid.

>>1
try working out or coding or some shit.
maybe try to get neet bux

>>4
Got a degree and a profession, but I'm in Ops boat, I even have a six year long term gf. Life still sucks, its boring, i hate getting out of bed in the morning. Everyday is almost identical.

>>3
Im only 19, i left school at 17 (completed it) and have just sat at home, getting sadder and sadder

>>1
same here but for 4 years and im 20 now

>>1
Do you smoke a lot of weed?

>>9
Smoke Weed Everyday.

>>9
Op here: No, i did i bit when i was at highschool, but i havnt done it for a long time

>>6
OP here: I feel you man, shit sucks

>>5
Op here: I might give coding a try, what language would you recommend ?

Also i assume neetbux means welfare? im unsure though

>>9
I'm not OP but i am going through the same shit. I used to smoke a lot of weed but can't really smoke anymore because it makes me feel like I'm guna have a nervous breakdown. Is weed the reason I'm depressed?

>>1
God you're a whiny nigger

>>7
obviously, you need to go start a career. Just try to pick something you might enjoy.

I'm the same. Went to the doctor about how I was feeling and he prescribed me anti depressants. I'm on week 3 and feel worse but the doctor told me I'll feel worse as they start to work then I'll feel better

I was in the same boat, OP. Last summer I decided to dose a lot of LSD and shroomies. It was like hitting the reset button on my mind. I've felt a lot happier since then. I recommend this to anyone who is stuck, as it provides you with a new perspective, as well as a lot of introspection. Good luck, op

>>17
I went through the same shit a few years ago.
At the beginning you may think and feel that you are worse , but in the next months you might notice that you stabilize.

That everything is ... meh, not terrible, not good either, but stable.

At least that's what antidepressant do for me.

And when I've been out of treatment shit hit the fan real hard (insomnia, obsessions, self-hate, even the first signs of being an hero ....).

Ofc your mileage may vary, but doctors + antidepressants is a start.
I'd suggest some therapy or ... ¿exercice? to just force you to keep going on, to move.

@OP : I felt the same way for the last 6 years. I feel like an impostor to everyone else. I might be a bit older than you, 28 to 29 next week .

But shit, If i felt something i'd say "feels bad man" . Dunno.

Welcome to clinical depression, or "Major Depressive Disorder"!

What is it? It's quite simple, it's basically death. You simply live like a robot or any other animal (eat, sleep, repeat). You were probably frequently exposed to negative emotions, so as a defense mechanism, your brain shut down some connections.

The brain had good intentions. It just wanted to remove the bad emotions that were there for too long... but it had to shut down the good ones as well! So instead of having fluctuating emotions, you have NONE. Zero, nada, nicht!

Like I said earlier, negative emotions makes it hard for humans to reach their primal goals such as find food, shelter, protect kids, etc. So the brain just permanently turns off all the connections related to emotions.

No more fun with friends and family, no more hobbies, no more desires, no more dreams, no more motivation... for anything!

If someone came to me, and offered me the choice between going to prison for a year or going in an all-inclusive hotel in Mexico, I would tell him my favorite response: "whatever" or "I don't have a preference".

That's what it feels like. Everything is neutral. I don't feel sad, I am just bored because my mind isn't producing feel-good hormones like serotonin. I have motivation for NOTHING.

The worst of all is that you can't do shit about it. Here's why...

You can either seek treatment, which doesn't work in most cases, and if it does work, you'll depend on pills like an heroin addict depends on opiates. Not to mention the side effects of most pills, such as loss of libido, a loss of appetite, a loss of hair, a loss of muscle mass, reduced bone density, increased fat gain, insomnia, etc.

Or, let's say you miraculously get cured one day... and you start having emotions again... can you guess what will happen?

You'll come to the realization that life is actually good and that you just LOST 2, 3 , 4, 5, or more years DOING NOTHING. That's gonna hit you like a ten ton truck.

>>19
Op here" So it is depression?
Should i, and how would i approach a doctor about it. I feel like they would just think im trying to get meds if i walked in there and just proclaimed that i was depressed.

>>20
Wow, i never thought about it. But i think it might be depression. I would say my childhood was rough. parents broke up, 3 different foster homes, moved back in with parents and constantly moved between parents to suit there schedule. I used to have 1 best friend, my best and only friend. One day he just went away, he moved to another town and didnt even bother to tell me.

I just have this thought in my mind that if i go to a dr about depression that they would just think im after pills

I've had this shit for more around 7 years now.

I literally LOST what was supposed the best time of my life and I lost it FOREVER.

At first, I was like everyone else here. I tough I was simply growing up and that it was normal to lose interest in my passion and hobbies...

Boy was I wrong!

It's not normal to lose interest in your hobbies when you're 16... or even in your 20s. It's a sign you're getting to the point of no return.

I wouldn't even wish this to my WORST enemy. It's a real torture. It feels like prison.

One day, around two years ago, I don't know what happened, but I actually felt something again. I was smiling all day long, my mind was clear and every thought was positive. When I went outside, I was shocked. Why?

Because for the first time in 5 years, I could actually notice the sun and enjoy it. I could feel the wind caress my skin. The colors were way more vibrant then they were ever before. I could actually smell the grass. It was probably the best day of my life, no joke.

It was so fucking amazing, I can't even describe it. It was exactly how I was feeling everyday when I was a kid and didn't have depression. Everything felt good and I was motivated to whatever I wanted to do.

Even if I was happy, I realized that I WASTED 5 years of my life that could have been spent this happy way... and it almost made me cry.

Anyways, the next day I went back to my neutral state of depression. But I was now reminded of how fucking good life can be when your brain is producing hormones normally. It was a shock, because such a feeling was a long lost memory in my head. I have been numb for 5 years and now I felt real life again for one day.

I was wondering, what did I do to actually make my brain produce these hormones again? Well, I analyzed my behavior of the few days before and there was nothing different I did.
So for the past few days of that day, I've been doing and eating pretty much the same stuff as usually. Except for one thing...

The day before, I drank some effervescent magnesium tablets I also drank a glass or two of sugar-less soda. Now, I've been having these magnesium tablets every day or two... because I found them reduced at the store and they give taste to water.

Anyways, I don't think I have ever drank both magnesium tablets and diet soda on the same day, but I did it that evening.

Did this cause a reaction in my brain? Maybe. I've searched online and I've actually found some studies saying that magnesium deficiency causes depression and something about sweeteners/ acesulphame K that could affect the brain.

I'm not sure about all of this. I don't think I was deficient in magnesium in the first place, because as I said, I've been having these tablets for some time now PLUS I had some dark chocolate I was eating almost everyday (100% cacao, good source of magnesium) for weeks. So what caused that reaction in my brain?

I think it's a combination of the sweeteners and the magnesium, but I have never been able to do it again...

But one thing is sure, that one day, was worth more than the last 7 years with depression. Hands down.

My goal is to somehow find a natural way to cure this shit so I can help everyone in this situation. Because this is truly hell, if not worst. I'd honestly rather be chopped in pieces by some mexican cartels, than keep living like this.

By the way, don't listen to people that tell you to "meditate" or "exercise" and take "medication". Does that sound like life to you? To wake up, and HAVE to meditate for 30 minutes, then HAVE to exercise for 40 minutes then HAVE to take this one pill at 8:00 am, this other pill at 1:00 pm, this other one at 9:00 pm, etc. All this to feel slightly better...

You might as well hop on heroin at that point.

I'm chiming in with no context here, but man, I relate- Apathy is the pits. Nothing matters, so inaction or action- all the same. I suppose however you want to cut it, you've reached out here, so I guess that might be step one- and it sounds lot like you would like to change your situation. I guess you gotta go bare-bones on this- apathy is fine and all, but ultimately you'll end up doing -something- to survive in it- a shitty job or something. you'll feed the apathy, the cycle will go on. Cool. Option 1 is sorted. complete nothingness until you die. Option 2. Do something. That sounds kind of vague and almost empty, but starting is key. Take a long hard look into yourself and work out if there is anything you like. Even if you just have a scale of intollerable nothings, work out a heirarchy for them. Do something with the first one- just get some momentum. Or, better than that- work out who you want to be and go be that. Radical change. The worst that can happen is you'll end up back in your basement playing video games- option 1 will always be there. So radical shift. It will be uncomfortable and it will suck, but it's worth doing. Someone said they felt the same and they went to the gym. Do that. seriously. Go and move your body and get tired. it will regenerate and with it you go do it again. do it for a while and it becomes a thing you like doing because there is genuine effort you can quantify and results that you can quantify. Apathy is a bitch man, I know. You just gotta get some momentum

>>24
This may sound like a reasonable advice, but it's not in this case. Here's why...

Your brain isn't producing chemicals like for normal people. You can't just start something and then get motivation, because your brain's reward system will release jack shit on day 1, day 2 or day 365. What do you get when you multiply something by 0?

Yep, that's right... you get NOTHING.

Same with your brain, connections are long gone, no more serotonin. In some cases of mild depression, medication can help, because your brain is actually still producing some. Then you could try to find a new job, hit the gym, meet people, and so on.

But if you've hit the bottom, your biggest concern is not if you are going to kill yourself...

It's actually, WHEN and HOW you're gonna do it!

Let me give you an example. I've had the chance to be "mentored" by some rich people on a yachting forum I was browsing to pass time. He told me pretty much the path to follow and gave me detailed tips. Sounds exciting?

Maybe for the normal person, but if you have clinical depression, you won't be able to do jack shit. You have ZERO motivation to do basic stuff like say "hello" to your family, so imagine trying to learn stock markets or whatever job you want to do.

You'll start and force yourself, but you'll NEVER, EVER succeed in this state, because your brain doesn't produce the "feel-good" hormones responsible for motivation.

Look, I was literally given a blueprint on what to do to have a great passive income in a fair amount of time. All I have to do is... DO it. Well, doing this or staring at the wall all day makes me feel the same. Even then, I'll force myself to actually do it and see how it goes.

Then in maybe one week, I'll achieve what a normal person would achieve in two hours, simply because my brain doesn't reward me at all for doing whatever I'm doing. So when I read a sentence, I won't memorize it... and I'll have to read it another time, and another time.