>>11What keeps you going?
In a word? Nothing.
I have no ambitions and I see existence for what it is: meaningless.
You might think, that me thinking existence meaningless I'm some edgy teenager. No. I'm 35 years old and I've been through the "mill" of things and say you this:
Fuck any 'meaning' you think you've found, because in the end of the day, you will still die and rot, and everything you've achieved in life will rot away as well, might stay around for a millennia or two in memories or whatever, but everything will rot, so says Entropy.
Your actions, however, will echo throughout eternity; what you do today will have some unforeseeable relevance later on. So, eat an ice cream when you're down or fuck a prostitute or whatever makes you content. Fuck being "happy", there is no happiness other than some fleeting emotions and take them for what they are: human inventions. Fuck all that. A S.O.? Kids? Just a fucking burden when you have the outset of chasing emotions of happiness because life is suffering plain and simple.
I embrace suffering. I embrace the meaningless of it all. Means I have a true outlook on life and how to live it. With all its nonsensical traps and suffering and what true values there are. Count calories. Use soap.