Im 25. Why the fuck is it so hard to be an hero. I've tried and tried and tried always failed burned myself with chemicals while doing h2s suicide thing with the instructions from the Internet. Tried to destroy my liver with paracetamol I took over 100g of it. Aspirin oxycontin etc. I live and Im very unhappy because of it. Since I remember even as a kid Ive been unhappy I can't enjoy anything truly anything not even sex. I have very poor autobiographical memory. I dont speak with people nobody even my family. I just have nothing to speak about with anybody as I have no interests in anything. I dont remember books I've read or films I've watched. As long as it goes I have no creativity truly I just copycat all along. No fantasy. And I'm scared all my live I'm fucking scared of people I feel endangered even if somebody looks at me. I know I can't defend myself because physically and mentally I'm a wreck. My dissociation goes so far that even passing a street is a problem focusing on a cars and whether its free to go or not. No driving license here when I was doing a course and exam I failed each time because I couldn't make decision on what to do on the crossings. I just freeze cant take any action. If for a normal human reaction time is 150ms mine goes somewhere around 1min. I don't show emotions beside being nervous all the time. I can't spontaneously answer any qeustion my mind just goes fucking blind when somebody is talking to me it switches off and I can only think of something after they are done talking but it takes ages to react. A half hour later I think about what a person said to me and I come up with something I could have said which would be good thing to say. But its over they moved on and I'm still stuck thinking about what I could have said. I'm quiet all the time. Being frozen unable to answer unable to say anything. I am very clumsy I can't dance I dont feel a music my body cant react to it. Body language is a mystery to me I dont use it.

Can you foreveralone cringelords fuck off with this sad faggotry for five goddamned minutes?

>>2
A true children's reply.

You know what's more pathetic than a beta, some fucking idiot calling anonymous losers on permavirgin: the board betas.

You know what you can do with all that money? Buy yourself a lenght of rope and use it to hang yourself.

>>1
Grow the fuck up, suicide is stupid and if you think it is a solution to your problems or the lack of meaning in your life then you're childish or too scared to end your pathetic depression

Be a man, and murder them, you pussy. With your bare hands, for maximum manliness.

>>5
You think a girl gives two donkey queefs about it though? She just automatically assumes he's the autistic faggot that he is for playing childish games during lunch.