I have a schoolgirl crush on a man 17yrs older than I am. I recently got a job in the back of the house of a restaurant. Its a really great place and everyone is very friendly and nice.

Not only that but the FOH and BOH staff get along very well together. Anyways, this man he works as a waiter/bartender. He is really great. When we first met it wasn't anything out of the ordinary but the second he caught wind that I played magic cards and was a nerd he has been teasing me. And teasing me a lot. Hes also been giving me nicknames. At first the teasing was nothing too bad but after a while it turned more and more sexual. But being a female working in a male dominant field and being a pervert that sorta stuff doesn't phase me.
On Saturday night him, a guy from the kitchen next door and I went to a pub after work. ( everyone from our restaurant and a few others go to this pub after work one regular basis) when we were there the three of us hungout as a group for the entire night, he gave me quite a lot of attention that night. It was a really fun and great night, my crush on him had developed by then and i was really interested in getting to know him. He id also exactly what i picture i'm my head when i imagine "my type". The lumberjack. He is tall burly bearded and screams manliness. That night though while we were talking i found out he has a girlfriend, when he mentioned her it was extremely difficult not to show that i was jealous, he could probably tell that I was. He still teases me so much and is still so playful with me though. I feel like a bad person for falling so hard for him.

Not only that but i too have a boyfriend right now, but we've come close to breaking up 5 times in the past few days. Hes abusive, long distance and takes me for granted.

Right now I've been sitting and dancing listening to music to get my mind off of this guy at work but i ended up just drawing pictures of him and then scribbling.