Hey /lounge/, my littler sister recently committed suicide and life has been pretty shitty. I knew she was depressed a couple months ago but it seemed like she'd gotten over it but I guess not. We were pretty close and I've been smoking obscene amounts of weed the past 4 days to try to forget about it.

When I start to come down I remember that she's dead and I just fucking lose it and cry. I only feel these emotions when I'm alone and a lot of my friends, neighbors, family, and others come up to me and expect me to be sad about it in front of them when they're crying. All of my highschool knows about her death and they've crowded my life with Facebook messages and texts even though I'm not close with them and it just pisses me off because they are acting like they we were friends before she died.

Every single person that has talked to me has emphasized that they are here for me and will listen if I want to talk about anything. But, clearly I'm not doing that because I'd feel much safer talking about it with anonymous strangers. I guess the point of this thread is to talk with people about how shitty life gets and perhaps advice with how to deal with people.

How does this make you feel?
I am hanging myself today so I am interested in this thread.

>>2
I feel shitty cause I just came down. And before you hang yourself, just know that a lot of people care about you more than you know. You should close all ties with the people you're closest with or that care about you the most so they don't feel so shitty because I can't even remember the last thing I said to her before she died.

>>1,3
Post pics of her on imgur or description?

>>4
Hahah Wtf.

Sorry dude that sucks. You should stop smoking weed because you're running away from it and start talking to someone real not us.

This I'd a step forward so I hope someone comes in with some stories and support of their own

>>1

My sister died a few years ago and I think it was suicide as well. She crashed into a tree and there were no signs that she tried to avoid it. My dad was in the hospital with cancer and my sister could not handle the idea of him dying. It may have been an accident. The night before she crashed (crash happened in the morning) she and I sat and watched Driving in Russia YouTube videos and dug out some old schoolwork and childhood drawings and were laughing the whole night. It was like we said goodbye without realizing it while we were doing it. Prior to that we had been on bad terms.

My dad died a few days later. So all that's left is my mother and I've said my goodbye to her. She even told me about a strange dream she had a few days ago where there were people in the way while she was trying to find my missing eye glasses and people kept picking up my things and she didn't know why. Then she was in a room where they were stacking up plastic bags with bodies.

I think she knows on some level that I'm going to die.

>>4
No pics cause it's hard to look at them without wanting to cry. I don't really know how to describe her but she was fun to be around even though I wasn't always blatantly nice to her.
>>5
Yeah that's probably a good idea. But emotions are just sp00ky things I don't want other people to know about.
>>6
Thanks for your story. I hope life doesn't get too rough for you.

>>1,7
Stephen Hawking said 'more physics and fewer feelings'. He was talking about movies, but it's a good idea. What does your logical brain tell you?

Quote reference, because he talks about One Direction, so that is a little sister thing too: http://www.theguardian.com/culture/2015/apr/27/stephen-hawking-tells-fans-zayn-malik-could-still-be-in-a-parallel-one-direction

I don't have a sad story but agree you need to quit the weed and deal with your emotions. Yes it's raw atm but that's how it always is.

>>9
How exactly should I deal with my emotions? I've cried and had the emotions but I just don't want to feel them all the time.

>>10
Dealing with them means giving them their hand, play a game of poker with them, then maybe some Texas Hold 'em. Weed is as an acceptable accompaniment to this game.