So my dad is 74, and lately he's been complaining about feeling shittier every day. I can't stand the thought of him dying, I know it has to happen but we'll never have another chance to get the boat out on the river or something, maybe fix some shit in the garage. The thing is I've been a shit son. In and out of jail a few times, felony weapon charge on my record, and my dad basically paid off all my fines and shit..he even paid the housing fees, and I've done nothing but drink and stay out of the cops eyes since I last got out like 4 years ago. I mean I quit drinking, and he said he's proud of me for that, but it just doesn't make up for what an awesome dad he's been. And I cried myself into a head ache thinking about all this. I'm tired, I gotta work again in the morning, and all I think about anymore is what am I gonna do when he dies?? I can manage my own life now, but Idk if I can handle him dying yet, if it happens soon its gonna break me.

tl:dr OP is a faggot

Kill yourself you autistic faggot.

Just let him know what he means to you.. he loves you regardless. .