>>1I know what that's like. Been like that ever since gf broke up with me because of "distance". It fucking sucks being backstabbed like that after so long.
But I don't want to live like that, and you don't want to do so either. Life's too short to fucking bother with people who don't deserve a minute of your time, so just go out and fucking do stuff that actually makes you feel alive.
Personally, I just started to go out with my friends alot, we started a small band thing to have fun, we get wasted everytime and we own a pub.
So yeah, life is short, you could die in the next minute for whatever reason, enjoy it while it lasts and don't give a fuck about anyone not making you happy.