So I have this issue where I get mad anxious whenever i'm not working towards my goals.

No steady work right now so i've been in this constant semi depression. Doing my best to stay positive but it feels like there is this pressure on my shoulders because I can't support myself let alone progress towards my actual goal. I hesitate to even create this thread because I feel like I need to be working on my programming languages (not going to school, too expensive.) It's all self-motivated type of learning but it almost feels like I have to do this to find any type of side work. Been out of work like two months so shits getting stressful even though I still live with my mom who is breathing down my neck about getting a job. I have another interview coming up soon but who knows how that will go.

I don't really know what to do sometimes though. I feel like i'm moving in effort to fix my shit up with money again but it feels somewhat in vain because I have nothing to show for it. I'm a jobless asshole and shit sucks.

post your shitty stories or problems here.
found the image on the desktop, seemed fitting.

Get a tissue, cry and deal with the stress because your life ain't going fucking nowhere if all you do is under-achieve what you want to do and despise all you do.

You have confused having this experience with being one of the things you have experienced.

You are a mass of molecules, and the particular shape they are in requires you to socialize and meet goals in order to produce the chemicals that keep you calm and happy. Do not confuse this with your career and your self image, or your ego.

All you have to do is have the right chemicals and you feel fine. There are no goals to work toward.

I almost offed myself. Min-wage job, got shit house, being there for 8 hours isn't worth the 4 I get to spend in the stupid shitty house I rented between driving and sleeping.

Started talking to everyone I saw in front of me, it's another one of the things that I am, what have they done today, are they going to be okay