Okay, so check this out. I am normally the quiet kid and I always have been. Social anxiety has pretty much run my life up to this point. Anyways, I went to this party on Halloween and quickly started consuming all the alcohol I could find in order to function like a normal human being, and it worked. I quickly started talking to the "popular" guy at my college. We will call him Jeff. So Jeff was on the homecoming court, he's the Honor society president. Jeff is the man. I am the opposite of Jeff. Anyways, we both seem genuinely interested in what the other is saying. Weird. Fast forward to the end of the party and I'm pretty damn wasted. After watching everyone say goodbye to their friends, Jeff approaches me, invites me to stay at his place because I'm fucked up. I agree. When we get there I head straight for the couch and Jeff and his girlfriend head to his room for what I assumed was the celebratory Halloween poontang. A couple minutes pass and I hear Jeff coming to the living room. I was half asleep and he sat beside me on the couch and we started talking about life and drunken philosophy. Next thing I know Jeff kissed me. I was completely caught off guard, because his girlfriend is in the next room! At this point I was drunk enough that I was down for anything, and all the porn I've watched has definitely prepared me for what was about to happen. So I'm completely into whats going on. I remember talking dirty to him, and grabbing every part of him I could reach. I end up sucking his dick and he ends up sucking mine. We took a shower together and were just so lost in what was going on.

I'm confused and a little unsure about what happened because I've never thought of myself as full on gay. I joke about it a lot but I guess tonight I followed through. Thoughts all the way, before it was just sucking off some guy in a car once.

What the fuck SFBE, your a 30 year old guy at college hanging around kids, I hope you go to jail you sick fuck!

Yep: 1. Do something that you enjoy (like a fucking hobby or just an activity like eat a pound of prime beef) 2. Do something unexpected (a long journey helps, if rich go to another countries, if not just go somewhere far by bike) 3. Think of something you would like to do and follow it (even when its something big like flying to the moon... but first small targets, like learn to cook or whatever)

Ive already banged the girl crushing on me a couple times, but Im more interested in a relationship than sex honestly. If I wanted sex Id just fuck a friend of mine whose in an open relationship and has made it clear she wants to bang.

I am normally the quiet kid and I always have been.

Whats that got to be with sucking dicky!

Just another cog in the communist brainwashing machine that is the Western education system. What else would you expect?