I'm 30 years old and I've been obsessed with a man 20 years older than me for the last 8 years. Just because he is the best sex I've ever had.
he is a generally shitty person, drama queer, self-center narcissist, totally ignoring me while getting all my attention without ever appreciating me. From time to time he decides to totally ignore me for a couple of months. I obsses over him, calling every day while he never answers, sending him texts, even letters. Then he gives me a couple of days of sex and I forget everything.
That's what happening now.
I think I like being humiliated by him.
Am I a beta-queer?

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>>30

getting mentally raped by 50yo narcissist

Well, u might not be beta, but ur 100% infant retard

I'm a generally unlikable person, nobody has ever been my friend and even my parents despised my very existence.

You have too good opinion about yourself anon.
"trying hardest to make friends" -> How?
"I would treat a girl so much better than" -> Really? Just like any beta...

I think people see you as creepy. Relax don't "try" as hard

You're Bisexual. Nothing more, nothing less. Bisexual. Don't be delusional.