I've progressed through multiple mental stages thinking that I could never do this, but I don't feel anything right now and I'm not really afraid, even though i've been crying for a straight 2 hours. I feel like I should die somtimes, thoughts?

whats the major cause you want to

>>2
lots of trauma, my friend is suicidal, he was raped 8 months ago and we still cry and think about it even though we don't tell eachother, I know it's harder for him than me but he told me all of the details.

I also have a hard time being socially acceptable, sure I have friends, I'm accepted by everyone, but I always tend to be the bitch in all of my friend groups. I'm always the one that people tend to talk shit towards and after say they're just kidding.. I think it stems from a helicopter parent.

I've done so shitty in my past years, I haven't tried in life for the past 3 years and I'm trying to get back into the groove and it's so difficult and and I'm just breaking down...

I won't lie I'm a wizard and applying to colleges with a 2.4 but I'm not stupid, I've been actually trying and I'm able to maintain over a 4.2 with 4 AP classes. and I'm dealing with parent abuse, my single mom refuses to help with the process, I'm unable to get a job, I'm having to do volunteer hours to build a resume because it's so hard to get a job where I live without proper references that I have failed to get in my past 3 years. sorry for the stream of consciousness writing I just need to let this out.

Attention seeker detected.

Do or do not. The choice is yours and yours alone.

Sorry, I'll go much more in depth if you'd like, it's just a lot of shit pouring out. I've been a long time lurker and I just haven't really posted on here and I already feel judged on here but I don't know where else to go cuz you guys are my /lounge/rs. I'm literally crying typing this lol
>>4
Yes, i'm asking for thoughts, so i guess I'm seeking attention.

>>5
dont half to go to details if dont want
just know that life is shitty it will never be perfect it will never be happy
but its the only shit you got if you want to do it i dont think you should suffer but there is no going back a bullet to the brain cant be taken back

- Get rid of your suicidal friend, her attention seeking ass won't help you any further in life.
- Stand up against your friends and do not be a faggot.
- Go see a psychiatrist.
- /lounge/ isn't the place for ''help''.

>>7
he wasn't always like this, I love him, we're basically future high school sweet hearts. he ended up moving last year, and.. got harrassed, by this guy, told me about him months before he actually took his virginity.. (we didn't have sex until much later(sorry I'm hitting my head and crying right now lol) ) and then he told me the day of.. actually I remember the day.. I was taking the SAT.. and I texted him and he didn't act normal. I've got a thread on it, if you'd like the story or whatever, anyways he wasn't always suicidal, he's honestly the sweetest boy I've ever met.. and I don't want to leave him, I just can't handle with these feelings anymore it's.. overwhelming.

>>1-3-5-7
heres my reasoning for not an hero'ing as of yet

can you think of the names of at least 3 people who would come to your funeral?
or be upset about your going bang bang bye bye?

well then if you can. you can't kill yourself. why put people who care about you through that?

that is the only reason I'm not dead right now. and looking back to the moment, when I was sitting on top of a 10 story apartment building, when I decided that would be why I lived, I can say it was a good thing, things are looking up a little now. with effort and time I'll be laughing at the thought of suicide again

so if I could make that decision, basing my existence on other peoples opinions of me, then it cant be that bad

unless you are literally unloved. then my vote is buy an airsoft gun, paint it black and go have fun at a mall

If you were serious about it, you wouldn't have posted on /lounge/. You would have just done it.

So buck up. Make yourself happy no matter what that entails. Be the change you want to see in life.

>>8
Jeez man you need to man up and get over this. You aren't being tough at all, did the guy take his virginity while you were in a relationship with this boy?

>>11
I don't even know the last name of this guy, he never went to the police and, for some reason it always crosses my mind at some point of every day. It's the feeling of being powerless and not being able to stop it.. I literally imagine him screaming and no one hearing him every time and I have to take a break from classes every time.

did the guy take his virginity

yes

>>12
If its affecting you that bad, go do therapy with each other instead of wallowing in despair.

>>11

did the guy take his virginity while you were in a relationship

I guess this is where some problems stem...
is my relationship with this boy.. like we talk every day and we leave a call open on skype every night and every other night he'll have a night terror and will wake up crying.

And you are sure he just didn't make that shit up?
You believe this boy for what she says?
He never when't to the police and isn't telling his last name...
You might be feeling bad for something that did not happen.

>>15
Why would he make it up though? he told me about this guy months before.. Kyle.. was his name.

He stole a kiss from him, he then started threatening him. he's short and almost vulnerable looking.. and attractive...

I can't see why she would lie about this.

Because he is a queer.

>>17
but if it's a trusting relationship, and he has night terrors at like 3 A.M. I can't see why.. he would lie

the fact that your coming here and talking about it means that you wont do it. Suicide is almost always spontanious because if you think about it for any period of time you wont do it. Also, poor judgement for coming to a place where a bunch of mental defects who jack off to hentai dead tranny babies to talk about this, good luck dude, im not sure why you want to do this, but if you do, god bless.

FUCK YOU GUYS THIS THREAD IS DONE!!!

>>1
I don't understand the problem here. Sounds like you're going to have an awesome night.

I'm back because i'm absolutely and completely fed up with having a small dick, I've been made fun of on and off for the past 6 years, I've got no bulge at all and the few times I've had BJ with guys I've been given variations of the most awful phrase "is it in my mouth yet".

I'm sick and tired of this, and so I want to know how to grow my dick. Apparently you can't but there seriously must be a way, how the fuck else are there guys with 7"+ dicks?

So yeah, I'm willing to try anything at all to grow my dick. I'd like to have a ~5" dick, not much to ask really, it's a little less than 1" right now, 2" can't be too hard to add. There really has to be be some method to increase my dick size.