How do I get rid of over socialization /lounge/ ? It's killing me. I have really low self esteem, I have really poor conviction and i have absolutely no confidence in my thoughts or my actions, I always do what i'm told, when i don't, i feel guilty, jesus, i'd listen to a 5 years old retarded boy more than i'd listen to myself. I am a human sheeple, entirely dependent of any authority that crosses my way, even if tiny, i can think for myself, but i immediately erase my thoughts to let people's opinion in...All of that because i was a sensitive child and my parents were very rigorous with my education. How do i get out of this nightmare ?

OP you are pretty much me.

I personally found that thinking that way was a superposition of many parts of my life I didn't like. I started doing new things, things which meant that I could never return to my old life. Doing this, I tore my life down. I built it back up the way I personally wanted it. Before, my life was totally driven by external forces. Now, there is nothing I do that I don't want to do, and nothing I want to do that I don't do. If you start afresh, build your life from the bottom up, you will feel independent and truly free and utterly self confident.

This is pretty much THE cure for a sheltered childhood in which decisions were made for you.

Do you ever think that you may have made a wrong turn in your life somewhere down the line?