Alright so I'm a frog eating faggot, and I'm in China right now. In France, I was a nerd never going out, fapping once a day and eating a lot. Too much.

I had to make a year in China and decided to change my lifestyle as much as possible, trying to get out of this fucking Beta loser situation.

I went to clubs some times and met a bloody gorgeous russian girl (to me) on wednesday, who appreciated me and had the same interests than me in life.

Tonight, I went out too to meet her and her friends, so I tried to talk to her about my interests in her (idk if one can say that in english, but you've understood).

She dumped me, or whatever, she said she still wanted us to be friends. Bullshit, that would hurt me more than anything and I don't want to be that kind of fag.

Since it's the first time I'm approaching a girl by myself (I'm not a virgin fagget), I kinda felt in love with her, going too far in my plans, and I knew that, so I tried to stop it, but I was still hoping we could be more than friends.

I'm not interested in one night stands. Fap is enough and it's not an excuse. I really don't find any satisfaction in it.

She told me she wanted to have fun in China and because she's going back in 3 months, whe didn't want to try something serious.

I arrived in China at a weight of 130kgs (286 lbs), but then I made sports and lifting and I'm now at ~120 kgs / 264 lbs after only 2 weeks there. So I messaged her I would lift and get a better shape so she could find some fun with me later.

tl;dr : Fatty Beta got friendzoned but refused it and is now up for some body shaping and getting back to its crush.

Am I still a gay loser /vip/ ?

PRIVATE WHY DO YOU HAVE GODDAMN JELLY DOUGHNUT

meh.