I'm not trying to start a baww thread but seriously, how do you guys deal with life?
I've had suicidal thoughts for years but never enough to actually push me to do it. Lately life just seems so gloomy. I have no friends. I go to work, get home, play vidya, browse the web, get drunk and tell myself I'm gonna do it tonight then eventually fall sleep & repeat. I wish I could just leave and travel but I was a fool and bought a car on a 3 year loan.
Tonight I went to my little brothers highschool award ceremony and damn that fucking nostalgia it just opened my eyes even more of how happy I was then and how miserable I am now. Just hearing my neighbors all lovey dovey at night while I'm sitting alone on world4ct just depresses me to the max. I know it's my own fault though. I just don't know what to do anymore, I'm living for nothing. I'm a deadman walking. It's only a matter of time until I get too drunk and that faithful night comes.

TL;DR What makes you happy?