I'm alive because I want to have fun in my life and eventually have children that can live out their lives. My partner is asleep on the bed in the lounge room and we recently moved to a house and out of our tiny apartment. I've failed 2 years of uni and I'm turning 21 in May, I'm giving it one more go with doing Nursing Science and if that fails I think I'll just live for a while.
Oh sure everything ends but that's the point of life, to make yourself and others happy and to just live life. I try to look at death as a blissful release, if there is an afterlife I hope to whatever God there is that I'll get to see all my family again and I hope that anyone I leave behind will know I want them to just live their lives happily.
Only time I wanted to kill myself was age 13 when my mother told me she didn't love me. I'd lost my father (her husband) 2 years before and she was my only lifeline with me being so young and she was in so much pain and I was being a brat that she just shouted it in my face when I yelled it at her first. I know I would have killed myself but I didn't have the means. I'm glad I didn't. My relationship with my parents is getting stronger every day, my partner and I are buying a kitten soon and I can't wait to have another go at uni and live out my life.
Hope that was a good read OP haha.